even after four years

Four years ago I was 14 years old. 

Four years ago I was about to start high school. 

Four years ago I was super immature. 

Four years ago last evening, I had to make the hardest decision of my life. 

And four years ago this morning, that decision was carried out. 

I still miss her. I still miss her droopy lower lip. I still miss her swayback that was strong enough to carry all of my problems. I still miss her curly tail. I still miss her big, liquid brown eyes. I still miss her cowlick on her forehead that always had hay seeds in it. I still miss her scraggly mane that kept my hands warm in the wintertime. I still miss those long rides we took. I still miss how protected I felt whenever I was around her. I still miss how patient she was with me. Even after four years, I still miss everything about her. 

It wasn't long enough,

It wasn't long enough together

but it was long enough,

yeah it was long enough to last forever.

(stay tuned for the story of how we got to that day four years ago.)